I dont understand my condition

By: Haven Kline, sometimes i just wonder about my autism I walk in circles not knowing what im doing. Listin to the same song on repeat and think it is diffrent. But that is not what confuses me the most sometimes i just stare off to no where and not know what im looking at. And you might think it is because of the autism but i dont think it is. i mean sometimes i want to do things that arent even what i think about. like once i thought i was a demon with wings and then i snap in a freak out and start yelling out of nowhere but I like to think about nothing about darkness instesad of light. And when I do I sit in my room pitch black. And say nothing not even laying down just sitting there staring at the wall somtimes i satrt muttering jumblish and think it means something and the thing is i hate the dark is hate it when a room is dark i just run from it. But sometimes, I welcome it to consume me and let no one see me. And when im done I get terrified of myself but that is enough. i dont even know if anyone is reading this but if you are messege me on my email havenklin370@gmail.com and anyone who does the same please, we will figure out what is going on.

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