Time Only Goes Faster
Time passes faster as I age, days are meaningless, hours are nothing anymore, minutes seems like a second, but every second stays the same. I almost don't remember what I did the day before, because everything has become so boring and dull. Every day is the same as the last one, and it goes on and on and on, forever.
Every night, I lay in bed, sleepless, and I ask myself: will this continue to be like this? Will I ever feel happiness again? Will life get better?
I'm young, and time already passes so fast, will it get worse overtime? I don't want it to become worse in the future, I want to live a fulfilled life, I want to be happy, I want to change, but I see no way to do it. What options are there for me now? Nothing, there are no options, because you can't change time, you can't change the way it works.
I am lonely, I am sad, I am a shell of what I could be, and I don't know why. I will never know why, and I am not certain of the fact this will change anytime soon.
I am not sure if I'm good enough to do anything, because I don't believe in myself. Grades are dropping, I don't feel loved, I feel lonely and I am unfulfilled. Everytime I actually try and apply myself, it ends badly, no matter how hard I try, and this makes me believe that I am a failure.
I am not what I could be, and that hurts, a lot. If I have a talent, why haven't I found it yet? Everytime I take interest in something I lose that interest quickly. I can't keep a hobby even if I wanted to, for some reason, and the only thing that has kept me entertained constantly is laying in bed with a phone in my hand, consuming half-assed "entertainment" that mostly exists just because companies want to make money and want to sell a product. Art is dead, and it's dead because it has become a product.
Nature is ruined, resources are ending, the world is going in a downward spiral. The only emotion I really feel is dread, the rest is emptiness.
Why do we keep doing this? For some fast gains, some fast-burning happiness, but that's not what matters, what actually matters is the long term, but people are too selfish to think about that, because most won't be around then.
I want it to end already, but it just keeps going, and the only things keeping me here are the prospects that it will get better one day, so I won't do it for now.
But I just want to get out of this place.
Credited to SamSammi999
Originally uploaded on December 10, 2021
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