Going Goblin Mode Past Midnight

Sometimes at around 1 to 3 AM I get up, put on some heavy music on my earphones like Swans' Filth (pretty much their whole discography but especially Filth), Godflesh, Aphex Twin, Orthodox chants, whispering, screaming, or CSH. Then I usually strip off all of my clothes, start moving in repetitive and extreme ways that resembles dancing, crawl around on all fours, remove clothing from drawers with my mouth. I scream without screaming, try to fit inside cabinets or various other small spaces. I look at the wall (or mirror) until my vision gets blurry and, if I'm looking at a mirror, my face starts to distort. After that I sleep. I didn't worry if I might be heard, because the walls are quite thick and insulate sound well, but one day my dad asked me what the hell I was doing in the middle of the night, since he heard thumping coming from my room (his room is below mine). Since then I have mostly stopped doing it

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